People
call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one
girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty
face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I
liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence
and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that
I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good
match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings
would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine
ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last
reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls,
and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When
I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but
smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her
eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry.
Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched
her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like
her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know
that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel.
However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her
feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing
& joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not
know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her
out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about
my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her
getting together..
I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been
the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best
wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke
down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge
her presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my mobile. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's
pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf..
People
call me Leaf..
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms
with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a
feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him &
I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't
he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.
After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't
like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for
a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never
figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still
wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping
that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him.
Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma
accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my
3rd year, a junior pursues me. Every day he pursues me. He's like the cool
& gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I
realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know
the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but
the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf's
departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay..
Wind..
People call me Wind..
Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so
dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away.
When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA
time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends,
looking at him. When he talks with
girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in
her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she
didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except
it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to
their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her
eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him.
I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was
surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and
left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind
couldn't blow her away.."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because
leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and
slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I
know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one
day I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less
than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never
give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to
win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't
hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How
come you
didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding
my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I
hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place &
press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her
tightly.
Leaf
departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask
Her
to stay...
Moral..
In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even
if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more
than you love yourself.
There comes a
time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us
but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go..
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry?
When we imagine?
When we kiss?
This is because THE
MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.
There are things
that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep
in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new
life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched
and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the
people who have touched our lives.
A great love?
It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you
and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you
smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free,
let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love
dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest
people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall.
Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that
there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices
you've made.
Loving is not how
you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not
what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than
outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever..
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for
one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too
short to waste on just someone. .
(
Thanks "Kalyan", for sending this poem & Contribute to
4MintesPerDay . . . )
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